Hi. It’s been a while since I’ve been really active on this platform. Hoping to change that now. I felt like I was on a one way downward spiral around the time that I disappeared from this place. Needed to tell someone that might understand what is happening in my life and I felt like this would be a good return post around here, so I hope this is the appropriate community for it. Feels appropriate.

Both little things and bigger things feel like they’re starting to finally go my way. 90% thanks to finally asking for help from my older sisters, who I am forever indebted to for always being the dumpster fire that needs putting out. Hopefully I’m getting onto a path now of no longer help or even starting to be able to reciprocate.

On the little things side, I’ve got a nice new phone with a non-broken screen and can actually see what I’m doing and at least have a semblance of an online social life again; I’m starting to look more and more like me, my hair is getting nice and long now and looking fucking fantastic and doing most of the heavy lifting in making me like what I see in the mirror, and I’m finally getting my nose pierced again in the near future! I’ve been listening to a lot of music again and going down rabbit holes and discovering new things thanks to a thread I made here a while back on my other account; I’ve started dabbling in programming again and learning to make pixel art.

On the big things side, my fucked up and embarrassing teeth situation is mostly sorted out (actually this is doing the heavy lifting for my positivity levels); and I am going to be doing the TEFL (Teaching English as a Foreign Language) course.

Trying not to count my chickens before they hatch but hopefully by this time next year, I’ll have a decent paying WFH gig without a suit or a haircut or a manager breathing down my neck. And I’ll be really making up for lost time and taking my power back. And filling the hole with nice things like clothes and jewelry and tattoos and books, and things to put on my walls.

For anyone that read this far, thanks for reading my self centred rant. I’ve missed this place and missed a few of you (I’m sure you know who you are 💜). I’m going to try and not be a stranger around here from now.

  • Secret Music 🎵 [they/them]@crazypeople.onlineOPEnglish
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    27 days ago

    At this point yes definitely. I haven’t worked on a career over the years, so my prospects are mainly low paying blue collar stuff for the rest of my life. And from what I’ve gathered, particularly in my country, the teaching English gig rivals or is outright better than most of my other options.

    With a lighter schedule and in the comfort of my own home, or anywhere there’s wi-fi. I don’t need to be rich and it would allow for side projects anyway, if I wanted or needed. Personal freedom is something money can’t buy.

    And any other old school type jobs that I could get right now would just sap all my physical and mental health and time for the same or less reward.